I Fear...

I fear dying alone.
I fear no one will be at my funeral.
I fear dying in pain, but I don't fear death itself. I can't fear death, I don't know what it is.

I fear that (outside of my family), I have never been properly loved.
I fear that (outside of my family), I never will be truely loved.

I fear dementia, the day I start to forget more than I remember.

I fear clowns.

I fear being taken too seriously when I'm trying to have fun.
I fear being laughed at when I'm trying to be serious.

.....when I'm in a cheerier mode, I'll add an 'I love' blog.